Wednesday 16 October 2019

Of Lateness and Sadness

Whelp, here I am again with a couple of late posts to catch up on. I actually had ten days off in the last two weeks, with plans to just relax and get caught up on everything, but thins went sideways really fast. My grandpa, who just turned 90 this summer and was keeping in high spirits, despite his various ailments, saw his health take a nosedive over the last weeks, and finally succumbed to acute kidney failure, septic shock, and what we assume was pneumonia early last Sunday. He's been like a father for me for most of my life, so I'm stuck between immense sadness and disbelieving on one side, but also great relief that he could go relatively peacefully, without pain, and didn't have to go through the lengthy and potentially painful procedures that were supposed to start this week, and which might still have left him completely dependent on external help or even forced our hands to put him into a nursing home, where he never wanted to end up.
So naturally, my days and hands are full of funeral planning, cleaning his stuff out, crying, and being there for my grandma (who, at 87, is still going strong and taking it like a champ, but we don't want her to be alone too much, obviously). I'm trying to keep up with my crafting and blogging and general online socializing for my own sanity, but I'll have to ask you to bear with my posts being sparse and late for a while.
I'm also thinking about doing some special project in memory of my grandpa next year, but haven't found the right one yet. I'm sure inspiration will strike when I need it the most...

10 comments:

Robin Wylde said...

I am so sorry for your loss :( losing a beloved grandparent like that is extremely difficult and I know there are no words that can help. I lost my grandma quickly after she got aggressive pancreatic cancer, so I understand the grief and shock of it. It's a comfort to know he didn't suffer in the end, and you are doing great for being there for your grandma, she'll need you a lot right now. Sending you good wishes.

diamondc said...

Leonore: My heart cries for your loss.
I am sure it will be very hard adjustment for all, I hope it is an easy transition.

Hugs
Catherine

Terri said...

So sorry for your loss!

Carol said...

Oh, he sounds like a wonderful, wonderful man, Leonore... I'm so very sad to read this and I hope your memories of the happy times you shared together will help you through this sadness. Sending you a caring hug--I hope you find the perfect project to honor your grandpa. ♥

Leonore Winterer said...

Thank you for your kind words. It's still very hard for us, and hasn't even fully sunken in yet with all the consequences. We'll have his funeral next Tuesday, until then we're just plannings things day to day.

rosey175 said...

*huuuuuugs* My husband's grandfather was the father figure in his life and it hit him hard too. Take the time you need to get through these rough waves. ♥♥♥

Jo who can't think of a clever nickname said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I know how close you were from the numerous posts where you talk about him and your Grandma.
I am happy that he got to see you and Felix get married and I am sure you will find the perfect project to remember him by.

Rachel said...

So sorry for your loss. Losing a loved one is never easy. Stitching a project in his honour would be a lovely tribute, and one you can stitch with fond memories. :)

Bethan said...

Sending you so much love and hugs. I am so sorry for your loss x

Astrids dragon said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandfather. Treasure your memories, I'm sure you have plenty. A special project in his honour sounds lovely, I hope you find something special.